Paralyzed

As I stood looking out through the glass,

Into the moving traffic,

The commotion of the crowd,

All I could hear was my heart beating,

This moving traffic, was suddenly motionless,

The commotion of the crowd fell on silent ears,

As I tried to move, I was glued to the ground,

Paralyzed in that moment,

The one that had made all things come to an abrupt halt,

As I tried, tried, tried again, to move,

I couldn’t,

All I could feel was the sensation of droplets falling down from the river in my eyes,

In that moment,

When time did not exist,

When the world outside was not real,

The realization of how much pain I had within my soul,

Pain buried so deep, that it became an organ within my body,

This organ, had now reached the point of no return,

It had deteriorated into small pieces, which ran through my blood stream,

Infecting, harming and hurting me,

And as I stood looking out through the glass,

I realised that in that moment, I stood not as a whole person,

But someone who was broken from within,

Someone who was responsible for the little pieces that now made up who they were,

Someone who now stood still, paralysed by a pain, which was no longer curable,

Sentenced to life, within her own body cell.

(c) Red Velvet

Published.

Return my sparkle

You see the smile,

I feel its pain,

And the accused stands there,

Being guilty of everything but giving me the love I needed,

Sentencing me to a life of imprisonment within my own jail cell,

As each day passes,

I feel as if I was the guilty one,

Giving you what I didn't want to,

Letting you break down that barrier, behind which I stood,

Little did I know,

That you weren't the person that was going to save me from falling,

But you were the car whose headlights flashed so brightly in my eyes,

Leaving nothing but tears crashing in to my soul,

Stealing each breath of mine while I lay there,

I suddenly became a statistic that day,

She who loved, she who lost, she who felt each part of her heart breaking,

As though it was physically possible,

The illusion of an happy ending, was all that it remained,

An illusion,

This made so many like her live life in its utmost delusion,

When you give your heart away once,

The owner of the sparkle in your eyes then belongs to someone else,

And when they leave, they take that sparkle with them,

That is why you only need to look into the eyes of an individual,

And you will be able to see just how much they have loved and more importantly just how much They have lost in life,

For that's why we all walk without seeing,

Sometimes the truth you see in someone's eyes,

Is more than you could have ever expected,

So frighteningly honest and bare,

And one day, when you're looking at your reflection,

You may not even know whose eyes you're looking into.

(c)Red Velvet

Published by Forward Press

Shadows

Each time I close my eyes I feel the weight of my worries drop to the
base of my heart,

The pain that was so clearly evident in my glazed eyes falls to the wall within me,

The wall that surrounds me,

I'm unsure of my own actions,

Unsure of my own feelings,

Feelings that betray the words I so easily speak,

Each time I close my eyes,

I feel the weight of my worries reach my soul,

The very soul which tries each day to find the strength to live
another day,

To face yet another twenty four hours of agony as to how someone can still breathe when the air was taken from them so long ago,

Glazed eyes,

Strained smiles,

Broken laughs,

Everything seems to be tainted with the aura of darkness surrounding
ones steps,

Where once who's shadow use to be seen behind them,

Now seems to walk step in step with them.

(c)Red Velvet 2009

This poem was published by forward press sometimes last year

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